22 April 2014

Running 22-Apr-2014

Well the weight training part of last week was a bit on the lax side, combination of seizure being fairly major and a bit of sod this it's Easter and I want to have fun with my son.

Back to it today and with a bit of cool wet weather I got in a decent run, one of my best in a while in fact.

5.38 miles in 41:01 pace 7.9mph

There is a lesson today as well. When you have done well keep to that thought. I decided to use a bit of spreadsheet work to find out how close that was to 8mph and found it was rounding up 7.869972mph and I would have to be 40 seconds faster to really be at 8mph or 25 seconds quicker to round up to it.

17 April 2014

Running 17-Apr-2014

Well I am not 100% after the Monday seizure but patience ran out and so did I.
Considering how I feel I am happy with this, head hurts again now but never mind.

5.39 miles in 42:53 7.5mph

14 April 2014

Angry Pacifist

The contrast of this confuses a lot of people and hasn't done my popularity any favours, good job I consider popularity over-rated really. This will be full of generalisations, I know all generalisations are wrong but if I state not all are like this every time it is going to get more than a little ridiculous.

The simple question I get asked is how someone embracing peace can justify getting angry. Something that shows an outstanding ignorance to the world around them and what it really means to be a pacifist.

There are the hippy pacifists who chuff away on their cannabis declaring peace wearing their designer tie dyed CND t-shirts, you may have guessed I am not a fan.
Cannabis, the peace drug. Yes it does make people more sedate in most cases and does such a good job of suppressing the nervous system that long term use means they tend not to get it jump started again. However the trade itself is far from peaceful, local and international violence are rife within the trade of every illegal drug, so using it to maintain peace shows incredible lack of understanding.
CND, the pathway to peace. Yes I would like CND (complete nuclear disarmament) I cannot think of anyone who can count above their IQ who relishes the idea of dying in a nuclear winter. But a quick look around the world and you will see there is plenty of war going on without the use of a single nuclear weapon. A look in the history books shows that in the thousands of recorded years before we split the atom there was plenty of war and millions died in it.

Hypocrisy. I describe my stance as a pacifist as being incredibly hypocritical and feel that refusing to accept this really haven't thought it through.
I have the right to be a pacifist because others have fought and died in wars for me to be allowed this. So without war I wouldn't be allowed to embrace peace. this is the worst but there is more.
Oil, aka the real WMD from Iraq, they found it and there is such little doubt that this was the true cause for the latest hostile takeover the US and UK have combined forces for. I use it and many of the other things wars have been fought over. Even if I didn't drive the fact I eat means food has been transported, the fact i am dressed means the chances are i am wearing clothes made by people kept repressed in militarised countries.
Priorities. I have a wife and son and I know if they were to be taken from me in a violent manner the person(s) doing so would need to be arrested for their protection. We all have our pressure points and my family is my life so without them I truly wouldn't care. Reality is this is so unlikely I can safely declare it isn't going to happen. The point is still valid, my pacifist ideals have a limit.

Main targets of anger. I was brought up in a military town and can say with some authority there are a number of military personnel who enjoy their job and prospect of killing too much. They are however the minority, except where chefs are concerned, because most know that going to war means they are as likely to be wearing this seasons latest fashion in body bags as the enemy. So much to the shock of many I don't actually have a lot of anger at the military itself, I wish we didn't need one obviously, but we do and people wanting to fight, kill and die for the illusion of ideology used to cover true intent are entitled to do so.
My anger is further up the chain of command. Where people who will never fire a shot make decisions that cost lives they don't care about in order to give them more money, power etc. This isn't new, so if anyone reading this thinks it's a gripe about the latest profit maker please consider history is one of my passions.
Let's have a look at a couple of well known wars from the early part of the 20th century.
World War 1 started when the Austia-Hungarians decided the best way to honour a man who said not to go to war against Serbia during his life was to do this exact thing after he was shot. Once war started it became predominantly an issue between Germany, Belgium, France, England and Russia considering the royalty in charge of Germany, England and Russia were all cousins it isn't a massive stretch to say millions died as a result of a family disagreement.
World War 2, the inevitable result of a rushed and badly managed end to the first. One my grandfather fought and killed in. He is one of many decorated killers in my family, one who declared that we were too easily trained for that type of work. This wasn't a man of great education, in fact he was illiterate until he met my Gran, but he was far from dumb. He realised after the war had ended and he was working for peanuts watching those in authority get rich that the liberty he believed he'd been killing for was just another power struggle were he and others were considered disposable.
Bringing things up to date we had Blair declaring terrorism as the 'new evil of our time' as we partnered up with the Americans to invade a country using a blatant lie as a smoke shield. I know terrorists are officially people acting in a military manner without uniform so our troops weren't terrorists, but I would say the act of entering someone's country to take their resources without appropriate sanctions is using terror to get what they wanted. Sick part that makes me angry, is I have to pay for this out of my taxes, so I am funding an unjust war I never wanted without choice.

Realism. I know there is no way I will ever see this world at peace, it doesn't stop me wanting it. We live in a world where might is worshipped and ignorance is embraced and encouraged by people who profit from it. However things are changing, information is more freely available than ever, of course you need to filter through a lot of trash to find it but more people are starting to see through the bull and realise the cost isn't justifiable.
I am not confident enough to say there is peace in our future, but as more people start getting angry about wholesale violence as I do the chances increase. Who knows.

Squat Circuit 14-Apr-2014

I got my 3 sets, then after 2 squats I felt faint 3 I had to call halt. Seizure on the way, joy!

Squats 100kg
Calf raises 100kg
Kettlebell goblet squats on bosu 32kg
Touch ground tuck jumps

Let's Talk About Sex

We educate our son at home and this has been a continuous challenge partly because I refuse to teach ignorance and don't want a clone who cannot think for himself and is limited by me.
This however is about a topic all parents need to be ready to talk about and teach. Not doing so creates one heck of a mess, and most u=of us probably know this from personal experience.
One of the recent science blocks was postponed when we noticed an early visible sign of the early onset of pubescence. So instead of teaching the topic of reversible and irreversible reactions, something he is now enjoying, I was teaching puberty and teenage neurological development of both genders, something he hated but to give him his full due took seriously and enquired about with great interest. I have already told him there will be sex education to follow in a few years when he starts becoming interested in that, right now the idea repulses him so he would shut out the subject. He accepts though doesn't fully understand why this desire will suddenly appear. He figured out for himself that sex is the path to reproduction by watching nature documentaries and is very at home with the fact his origin was his parents copulating, yes it really is as disturbing as you think to have a child of 8 years old, as he was, responding to a program talking about a child being the product of love by stating, 'no it's not it's the product of sex.' When you pick your jaw up from the floor you spend one of the longest half seconds of your life figuring out what to say to this evident truth.

Why is this important?
My version of sex education was if anything worse than learning about puberty. Parents wouldn't cover it at all. My step father when trying to explain what HIV was asked if I knew what a condom was or did, when I said no the conversation was pretty much over. School covered puberty after I had 90+% finished it and I was a very late developer so that was destined to be totally useless. Add in the totally vague content and they may as well not have bothered.
What I did learn by listening to my mother and her friends talking in one room and my step father and the other men talking in the other was the women weren't being satisfied and hadn't been willing to let their men know. the men thought they were doing well because of their partners dishonesty. So I left home thinking men had no chance of pleasing a woman, scared to death to even try and convinced any pleasure I saw would be faked.
This combined with being such a late developer meant I spent a few years taking whatever was offered and doing exactly as I was told, partly from desire to please but almost as much from fear of messing it up. In short if you aren't willing to teach your child about sex you will cause them problems. There are more important lessons and yes this isn't something any of us are looking forward to, but it's better than leaving them to learn by a string of mistakes and neuroses about what should be one of life's pleasures and hopefully a part of a loving relationship.

Keeping dialog open.
This isn't just regarding sex or puberty. We are the constants and have to be there for our children. But it is something many would be too embarrassed to talk with parents about, if the dialog isn't kept open these lessons will be hell on earth and it will have been your own fault. If you have let them close that doesn't excuse you from class it just means you have to work harder in them, no excuses.

Some topics I intend to cover.

Reasons for sex. He already knows one of them and was inquisitive enough to have already learned the anatomical and mechanical act of reproduction in various plants and animals, including humans. He also understands that he will start having a desire for this and I have explained that this is normal. However we live in a world that acts as if this is disgraceful one moment and essential the next. I want him to understand that this is something to be viewed as part of a normal healthy relationship, and that when viewed responsibly something that can be safe, enjoyable and not something to be ashamed of.


Risks and solutions. This one will be fun, while explaining that sex is not a bad thing and can be a pleasant part of a relationship I then need to scare him into being responsible.

Unwanted pregnancies. Too many of us were one and the damage to parents and child is something that needs to be understood. Prevention needs to be realistic, I'm not the Catholic Church so where abstinence is not on the agenda a condom or other contraception will do very nicely.

STDs. Considering there are a number of these that can be transmitted without the part carrying the disease being aware of them and how to avoid or potentially treat them. The serious ones many get taught about but without a whole body latex covering you aren't getting away from the risk of those delightful scabies lice etc.

Rape. One home educator I have a great deal of respect for put up online that she was giving her younger child, her daughter, a talk about how to minimise the risk of being raped, then realised her older son had never had a talk about how to avoid committing it. None of us like to think our child would ever do such a thing, but statistically males are far more likely to commit rape than females, so not having this talk could mean you are part cause to a future rape. This is not a guaranteed result, I didn't have one and the concept of being close to committing rape has scared me to the point where I have stopped and checked the lady was sure several times in my life, choice of cold shower and being unsure, no contest. However burying your head in the sand is not helping. If parents talking to their sons about the realities of rape reduced them 10% it would be worthwhile, and I personally think if every parent did this it would likely reduce them closer to 10% than by it.
I am very cut and dry here, and have had many debate me because of it. The difference is yes or no, yes is consent no is rape, I don't care what stage this is at or how much the person being refused wants it or how much teasing has been done. I have met women who have deliberately tried to get me to this point because I had a reputation for being unnaturally in control, truth is the word no or stop will call a halt every time, I am terrified of hurting someone mentally or physically and this works better than bromide for me.
I don't know exactly how this conversation will go with my son, I have a couple of years to get ready and I know he will control some of the direction.


Techniques. This won't be a practical assessment but there are some basic things that need to be covered, stuff like lubricant not being a substitute for foreplay, (How's this for misusing a photo, and scaring a few homophobes at one go) being prepared to experiment and receive complaints when this results in his partner being turned off rather than on, etc.
Most of us get older and wish we'd had the benefit of experience in our youth, I am not going to get graphic in the lessons but a few simple things covering anatomy etc. are not likely to cause any harm and may mean he is more relaxed when he is confronted with someone wanting him sexually. If he is less scared than I was it will be a step in the right direction.
The main thing I want him to understand is that no-one is likely to expect him to be a sensation in his early days so it's OK to get things wrong and ask what his partner likes. Much as anything else there aren't many guaranteed wins, what works for one person won't for another and this is not a problem. People declaring they have never had any complaints often worry me, at best it means they are lying at worst it means they are afraid to try something new, aren't listening or aren't approachable.

Running 14-Apr-2014

Cool, clear and windy, the weather not me obviously. Like I would ever be cool.

5.38 miles in 42:20 pace 7.6mph

12 April 2014

Deadlift Circuit 12-Apr-2014

Got 5 circuits, last couldn't realistically be described as no rest but there weren't many pauses
10 reps a set

Deadlift 100kg
Pull ups on suspension trainer
Kettle bell swings to shoulder height 32kg
Bicep curls on low pulley 20kg

11 April 2014

Running 11-Apr-2014

Today was just destined to be a bad idea. Part way in left hamstring went tight and it took me nearly a mile to loosen it up. Then I got to just over a mile from the end and my body gave up.

4.32 miles in 34:26 pace 7.5mph

10 April 2014

Running 10-Apr-2014

Due to the GPS app not picking up me telling it to start first time I missed recording the first part of my run. In fairness this will not have made much difference to my overall pace. The first 100 metres or so while my legs where warming up they seemed to be having difficulty figuring out which way forward was.

5.23 miles in 42:13 pace 7.4mph

9 April 2014

Bench Circuit 09-Apr-2014

Got 7 sets, hard work. Stopped timing these, going for movement quality instead, so very pleased with 7.

10 reps a set
Bench press 50kg
Suspension trainer flyes
Shoulder raises 5kg plate in either hand
Tricep push down on high pulley 20kg

8 April 2014

Squat Circuit 08-Apr-2014

I got my 4 sets, not great, but I couldn't get more

Squats 100kg
Calf raises 100kg
Kettlebell goblet squats on bosu 32kg
Touch ground tuck jumps

Intervals 08-Apr-2014

Pushing it harder today meant I sacrificed consistency and near the end balance, but have to try these things.
Very bizarre to sprint while struggling to keep balance enough to run forward, and almost as weird when you slow down and start slight zigzagging.

3.64 miles in 33:24 average pace 6.5mph

7 April 2014

Running 07-Apr-2014

Considering the 84% humidity this was not a bad run. It isn't ridiculously hot here but the lack of air is really starting to get on my nerves.

5.37 miles in 42:21 pace 7.6mph

Actually felt good and by the end I was really feeling confident and like I could just keep going at that pace indefinitely again. Of course I want to have that at a higher pace, but that's me.

4 April 2014

Deadlift 04-Apr-2014

Today was 4 circuits in around 15 minutes
10 reps a set

Deadlift 100kg
Pull ups on suspension trainer
Kettle bell swings to shoulder height 32kg
Bicep curls on low pulley 20kg

Running 04-Apr-2014

Tech issues today. phone decided to go into power save mode and refused to respond to my sweaty mitt when trying to switch it on and stop it timing my run. I don't know how much time I was faffing for, felt like 20 to 30 seconds, but time is very relative. Even with that and the insane humidity (76% today) we are having for what is basically springtime I know I got minimum speed or better.

5.38 miles in 43:00 pace 7.5mph according to the app.

3 April 2014

Running 03-Apr-2014

Getting back into it. Pace wasn't dramatic but the run felt more natural again. GPS app giving such varied distances is bizarre but it's good enough for a guide.

5.35 miles in 42:24 7.6mph

1 April 2014

Bench Circuit 01-Apr-2014

6 sets in around 14 minutes. Think I'll get 7 next time.

10 reps a set
Bench press 50kg
Suspension trainer flyes
Shoulder raises 5kg plate in either hand
Tricep push down on high pulley 20kg

Running 01-Apr-2014

The joy of taking time specific medication. I have a choice of not changing with clocks causing me to be taking meds at dodgy times half the year, change the timing gradually giving me fatigue and headaches at a decreasing level for about a week or bite the bullet switch immediately and feel like grade A organic fertiliser for a day or 2. I went for the third so there was no training yesterday and I am not willing to do a squat circuit that left me light headed first week after this so no squats this week.

Adding to my general training misery today was humid, 77%, which I hate, so in fairness I am relatively happy with this performance.

5.39 miles in 42:41 pace 7.6mph