14 February 2014

Running 14-Feb-2014

Loving this weather. Cool clear air makes running so much easier for people like me who are limited by breathing.

5.41 miles in 41:09 pace 7.89mph

13 February 2014

Deadlift 13-Feb-2014

More slow but increased a few weights. There's a limit to pace.

Deadlift Half with gripz 3 x 8 x 80kg
Bent over row 3 x 8 x 60kg
Upright row 3 x 8 x 30kg
Twist curls with plates 3 x 8 x 10kg a side tried 15 didn't go well.

Running 13-Feb-2014

Very cool clear and quite windy, almost perfect conditions, so no surprise a good run.

5.39 miles in 40:54 pace 7.9mph

11 February 2014

Running 11-Feb-2014

Well this was a better run than expected. I thought hitting calves yesterday would take the spring out of my step but it was good.
Weather wet and cool. Simple system when needing to stay warm, run bit faster.

5.39 miles in 41:11 pace 7.85mph

10 February 2014

Squats 10-Feb-2014

More slow movement. Not getting any easier.

Squats with calf raises 1 x 10 x 50kg, 3 x 8 x 70kg
High bar drop lunges 3 x 10 x 50kg
Leg extensions using suspension trainer 3 x 8 really surprised how intense that felt. Good stuff.

7 February 2014

Bench 07-Feb-2014

More super slow

Flat back bench 3 x 8 x 40kg
Incline below horizontal flyers holding plates weight is per plate 3 x 8 x 10 kg
High Side raises with plates held by handle to put maximal weight furthest from body 3 x 8 x 5kg a side
Tricep push downs with narrow bar 3 x 8 x 20kg

Running 07-Feb-2014

This week my legs haven't had a day off and they are definitely saying TFI Friday right now.
There is a possibility that my wife could call later and need me to go in and drive her home, if I am needed I will do it but that will likely be the worst run I have done in years if so. Hopefully she will be fine and I can just do bench this evening.

Anyway the run.

5.37 miles in 42:05 pace 7.66mph

6 February 2014

Deadlift 06-Feb-2014

Still slow movement of course.

Deadlift 3 x 8 x 70kg half of each set with fat gripz
Bent over rowing 3 x 8 x 50kg
Upright row 3 x 8 x 30kg
Twist curls with plates3 x 8 x 10kg a side

Running 06-Feb-2014

Got to the halfway point today, turned around and my legs sent a signal very much along the lines of 'had enough of this, we want to stop.'
This means the run out will have been quicker than my run back but I made it. 1.5 miles to finish I really wanted to stop, at the half mile point I kept going thinking too close to quit.

Mixed feelings overall. I knew my legs were going to suffer and obviously any bad run feels disappointing, but this was still respectably above my minimum pace so I am less unhappy than I could have been. There is no doubt that trying to go further today would have meant me slowing down.

5.38 miles in 42:27 pace 7.6mph

5 February 2014

A Bit On Metal

Quite a lot on here about iron but there is another form of metal that is dear to my heart, the musical sort.

There is a certain irony to my musical taste. Yes the pun was intentional, it was lousy but I'm not a comedian. I don't like profanity and spend my life trying to be a decent pacifist who is in control of his aggression. So the fact that most of my preferred music is blatantly abusive profanity slamming the system we live in and the general ignorance of people who don't realise how we are abused by so many things would appear to be in direct conflict with this.

There is a lot of infighting in metal which I don't get. We are a niche group anyway, why separate within ourselves? People will post to tell people they hate a given song or band and they want to listen to someone else instead. Why they stuck around listening to it long enough to say so rather than going elsewhere I don't know. It's the same when people write in to complain about a TV show they watched start to finish, as if there is only one channel. I am well out of touch with music and have been scoring through YouTube to find stuff I enjoy. In doing so I have found lots of stuff I don't, guess what I left these to the people who do and moved on.

One band I have found that really tick my boxes is Disturbed, the name says it all. Vocals are heavy with gravelled edge but not the full on growl of death metal, the guitars are just heavy and the drumming is awesome. The lyrics are brilliant, not pleasant, but most of my music isn't, but thought inspiring in the way only nasty stuff can be on occasions. The thing I am finding with these guys is the way they have been able to play at the fast pace I prefer and slower paces without me stopping enjoying it. Normally I find slow metal horrible, the feel of heavier music brings out the accelerated hyper in me allowing me to stop trying to slow myself down for a while, so when this is slow it aggravates me by not keeping up.
The lead singer sang with another band Deviant and though I still liked his vocals the guitars were lighter and I didn't like it nearly as much.

One relatively new genre of music is symphonic metal, why it took so long to arrive I don't know, most metalheads love powerful classical music so this seemed a really natural step for me. Many of them use female vocalists or in the case of Epica and a few others female symphonic and male death metal voice, which is a brilliant combination. I haven't encountered many women who could carry off metal, most just never had the power, but recently I have heard a few really good examples, one being in the iron maidens, an iron maiden cover obviously. To be able to cover Bruce Dickinson takes serious training, the guys vocal range was incredible and she does it better than anyone I have ever heard. The only reason I don't listen to them more is because I can listen to the actual tracks by iron maiden when that is the pace I want.

Old vs. new metal. Seriously annoying debate. I like a lot of the newer stuff but without the old to inspire them they would be nothing. The reason I prefer the newer stuff is predominantly pace. Older metal groups were playing to fans who will not have been used to hearing seriously fast music. In order for them to be remotely successful they had to play what people could handle, they were also inspired by music from other genres because metal was brand new, so the inspiration was from slower music. Now we have bands standing on the shoulders of these giants taking what they did to the next level in various ways while still keeping to the fundamental principles.

Topics. The most common topics in my metal are pointing out the flaws in society, leadership, war and showing ignorance as the harmful thing it generally is. This isn't done calmly, which makes people think it is about encouraging violence even though it is just showing why serious pacifists get so angry. One of the songs that brought this to my mind was finding out that the UK Christmas No.1 was rage against the machine's killin' in the name. A song showing disgust at the way people are sent to kill for the profit and megalomania of the few. One part I found strange with this was the declaration that it was inappropriate for Christmas, after all how could a group of people with one leading voice getting angry and speaking out against the establishment in the name of peace be relevant to a Christian festival. Surely Jesus never got angry at the governing powers and the violent repression going on around him. Maybe they should have been wearing fake white beards, that would have made them relevant.
Religion or inspiration from the scriptures are very common, though rarely viewed in a positive light. Personally I don't see this as an issue and most with strong faith don't either. One of my old training partners was a Christian who loved metal and would happily sing along with the lyrics slamming parts of the bible or decrying the way the faith of many is abused. As far as he was concerned if you can't handle your faith being challenged you don't really have any.
Love songs. There are a few, if somewhat less than there are lust songs. Most of them are about sticking with it and working together as a couple or family, which is more realistic, because fairy tale happily ever after is just that a fairy tale, good relationships take constant work, over time this becomes so much part of your life you don't realise it but it's still there.

If you don't like metal because of the sound, fair play, most don't. If it's the content you struggle with you may just need to find a different band. There is metal about virtually everything, legends, violence, politics, etc.

Intervals 05-Feb-2014

Was supposed to do these yesterday but just didn't feel like it. Today there was a mix of wind rain and a bit of hail while yesterday was clear, that serves me right.

The cold and wet encouraged me to keep the recovery pace higher and this meant I tired over the session, so my sprints suffered over time.

3.61 miles in 33:24 average pace 6.48mph

Wear Your Label With Pride

There are a lot of people who object to being put into boxes by people because of the negative views others have about those in that box. I used to be guilty of this too but over time I am realising there is nothing to be ashamed of with many labels, and objecting to them does nothing but discredit me or anyone else in that group.

I am a white male who listens to some of the most abusive, angry and often indecent music imaginable, and I have a good imagination. Therefore I am a metalhead, the common view of this group is a very anti-establishment group of ignorant Neanderthals who never bathe, wear denim and leather 24/7 and either wants to fight or fornicate with every other living being. Don't see anything wrong with that, surely riding a motorbike in the rain is as good as a shower anyway. Of course the fact I disagree with a lot of the establishment just means I know more about what they are doing than those with heads in the sand or conspiracy theorists who don't realise the world has better things to do with it's time than watch them watching trash TV. Ignorance is all too embraced something insulted in a lot of the music and we talk about ourselves as Neanderthals for humour, something very key to the metal psyche. As for the violent reputation, interesting that most metal clubs sport the lowest number of violent incidents compared to those playing other genres, not very Hollywood I know but good for those of us who enjoy dandruff distribution.

Being white is a big thing of course, because it means I have never suffered racism or prejudice and have had a life of privilege, likewise for being male too. What a total load of rubbish that is. I moved hundreds of miles to escape the stigma of the area I was brought up, something that reached a point where my career would be affected by people knowing where I was from because of my mothers need to be housed without a high income. I remember a black person years ago announcing that the first thing I saw looking at him was a black man, proving that I could see basically. The fact he declared this proved he had judged me based on my skin colour, something I should just accept, until he made this stupid remark I was willing to consider him as someone who could be worth knowing, but this display of ignorance proved me wrong. Ignorance is all that is required for prejudice and all of us are guilty of it, our survival has relied on our ability to judge a situation fast and mark potential threats, but intelligence enables us to move past that and see the door filling shaved ape with dark skin could be just as intelligent and privileged as anyone else. As far as privilege goes, I am from the UK so have had the privilege of a statutory education and free use of libraries so consider myself very privileged, now with the internet, the learning is so easy I love it.

I am a fitness fanatic and more than a little obsessive about it, proven by the way I consider my routine of three 5+ mile runs, 1 interval and 3 weight sessions a week as very part time. As a straight head teetotaller I can definitely say I would rather push iron than have a drink. The view of many for this is that I am some health freak and must be the most boring person on the planet for refusing to addle my brain with alcohol or narcotics. No arguments there really, most people have no interest in fitness, despite often liking the appearance of it so to many I am very dull. However when out with people it was usually me first on the floor to dance, because they hadn't had enough to drink, and later of course prepared to approach and be rejected by potential dance partners because I didn't need liquid courage. Nowadays I don't go out, so am even more boring but while other parents are afraid to get involved and play with their children or just plain too unfit and uncoordinated to be able to, I am the one making my son and their children laugh and enjoy themselves. The additional joy we get if we have done well in fitness was made clear several years ago when someone asked me what I had taken to get like I was, the answer of 4 years wasn't what they expected.

Middle aged or old. I'm 40, if I make it to 80 I will have done well, so I am either middle aged or passed the middle making me old. Middle aged is matched up to midlife crisis and old as past it, both are states of mind and being we are supposed to be ashamed of, and I really don't get it. I like midlife crisis, the song is great, heard it covered by disturbed recently and preferred faith no more's version but both are good. This years idea of training for aesthetic gains for the first time in decades is as close to midlife crisis as I am likely to get, and far from doing so to impress a younger crowd it is my wife who has inspired me to do this by appreciating the additional bulk I have been gaining. I am not young, there is no aim to reclaim a youth I didn't give up but outgrew. I rode a big bike years ago, it was fun, I won't be doing it again, in fact the car I now drive has a smaller engine than that bike did and I don't care. I am not trying to discover myself, I know who I am and am pleased with it.

So and so's dad. Parents who miss having their own identity really do annoy me, I wanted to put that stronger, but you get the idea. My son is one of the most important things I have ever had in my life. Being associated with him is wonderful, and if the only way people know me is as his dad great. I will often introduce myself in situations where there are parents as Tony aka x's dad, so they understand I am happy to be known this way. The reactions to this are usually either a broad smile from others like minded or an uncomfortable movement from someone who later demonstrates how keen they are to dump their children at any opportunity. If you aren't going to be proud of being associated with your children and haven't the confidence to know your own identity, don't have one, then you can be known as just yourself.

Atheist or religious label. I do get a bit tired of the I'm not religious, I'm Christian or denial of being atheist because of the negative views of some. If you follow a religion you are religious, be proud of it, it doesn't make you ignorant, pushy or anything else people will try to assume if trying to put you down. It should mean you live your live following the guidelines set down by your chosen worship and your life is improved by it. Being an atheist I have encountered some real classics including the most stupid assumption that I am of the devil, because stating the characters in biblical texts as predominantly fictitious will mean I worship one of the less mainstream characters, fortunately this is rare, as most religious people aren't this stupid, but as I pointed out to one in particular who had got on my nerves for too long fearing the devil as 3 of the 5 main religions do is actually worshipping the character more than I do by declaring him imaginary. Because of the number of people declaring atheism as immoral too many try stating they aren't one despite no believe in any of the thousands of deities mankind has imagined. I am proud of what it means to me, I answer for my own life and make the most of it while it's here firm in the belief that when it is over only the energy and chemicals in my body will live on to be absorbed back into the natural cycle as I absorbed others.

IT geek/ nerd. Well databases, or at least data manipulation in any case. We in IT are often stereotyped as computer game obsessed, nerdy, weedy, sorts with specs, no social skills or confidence and very uncool. This is changing as more people start getting into tech, but the divide between tech savvy and full on IT nerd is very present. I remember working in a place where one of the sales team was asked by a customer how they dealt with credit control and stated he would send round the IT team, the customer laughed until it was pointed out we were the crew spending lunches in the gym or playing basketball/ tennis in the park and that our line manager was a former semi-professional rugby player. For many of us, like me, this is a job, we do it then go home and live a real life. I am hopeless at computer games but even though I am somewhat strange in many ways people have often declared I am cool, something you have to not be seeking to achieve by the seems of things.

Medical labels. I am epileptic, something that shocks many people. For some reason having something that has to be declared on the disability/ health section of forms means I am supposed to have given up on life and started making excuses for having done so, medical being the main one. It does impact my training far more than I like but I get on with it, there are many things that could kill me epilepsy is just another one on the list and I don't think it has much hope.

4 February 2014

Squats 04-Feb-2014

More slow movement. Not getting any easier.

Squats 1 x 10 x 50kg, 3 x 8 x 70kg
High bar drop lunges 3 x 10 x 50kg. Realised 5 + 5 is not 8, so have been recording this wrong. Doh!
Leg extensions using suspension trainer 3 x 8 really surprised how intense that felt. Good stuff.

3 February 2014

Running 03-Feb-2014

Perfect weather and time reflects it. Cool and clear air, encouraging me to go quicker and giving me oxygen to fuel it.

5.38 miles in 41:11 pace 7.83mph

2 February 2014

Bench 02-Feb-2014

More super slow and now with full set of exercises. Bit heavy on isolation but, makes a change.

Flat back bench 3 x 8 x 40kg
Incline below horizontal flyers holding plates weight is per plate 3 x 8 x 10 kg
High Side raises with plates held by handle to put maximal weight furthest from body 3 x 8 x 5kg a side
Tricep push downs with narrow bar 3 x 8 x 20kg

Squats 01-Feb-2014

Movements getting slower so felt hard even with these weights.

Squats 1 x 10 x 50kg, 3 x 8 x 70kg
High bar drop lunges 3 x 8 x 50kg

Planned to do bench later in the day didn't but planned to.